#5
Life is good when it’s good and bad when it’s bad. Ever heard that saying? No? That’s because I just made it up. But it’s true! When life is good, I’m standing in the sunshine, warm, confidant, happy, and everything is falling into place. When it’s bad, I’m insecure, alone, and everything is falling into pieces.
Weirdly enough, now isn’t the time when life is falling apart. I don’t think I’ve ever had this before, where everything is smooth.
Last nights date with Luke went awesome. We sat at a little diner, had coffee and chocolate cream pie and chatted about each other. He really seems like a great guy! Wearing a blue t-shirt with silver paint splatters on it, he looked amazing. But I was expecting that.
After desert we walked, just walked. No destination, no purpose – just walked along the streets. Darkness lit with muggy yellow streetlights. And we talked, of his family, mine, where we worked, beliefs, a little politics. The conversation was easy and comfortable. He put his hand on the small of my back as we walked and the warmth and strength from it felt amazing…
At the end of the night, he asked me back to his place, and surprisingly enough, I had enough courage to refuse. I didn’t want to, mind you. But I knew in the long run, it was the better thing to do. I had created an image with him that made me look easy and I wanted to change that. At least a little.
A kiss good night wasn’t out of the question though. A long, kiss. His hands pressed me into him and mine held his collar, bringing his face close to me.
It.
Was.
Heaven.
My heard skipped several beats, and those butterflies in my stomach, the ones that I haven’t felt in a long time, started fluttering again.
When lightning strikes, it knocks you off your feet.
posted : 2 years ago Friday, October 23
